In OT mercy was granted by the victim. The wages of sin is death, not eternal torment. Does death have purpose? Mourning is powerful. Till you accept you, you will never know that God accepts you. When my opinion of me matches God's opinion of me, death is different. Every life experience is an opportunity to reveal my worth. It is not a test. Worthiness is the answer to sinfulness. When I know my worth, I can act worthily.